I Have Feelings

Tuesday 17th January 2017 @ 11:17 pm : Rants, thebitchwascrazy : 0 Comments :

Surprise! After nine years of being a depressed robot, I finally am having something close to normal human feelings again!

I do not like it. Make them go away.

Because I have a crush on someone! One of the really, really bad ones where it hurts in my chest all the time. And we’re both autistic! If she was alistic I would be pretty sure that she likes me, too, but I can’t be sure, because we don’t follow alistic patterns of behaviour!

Plus, y’know, I really really like her, and I’m so afraid that if I ask her out and she says no that it will screw that up, even though a great deal of my angst is over the actual NOT KNOWING, and if I got turned down and we could both continue as if nothing happened then I would be FINE. VERY QUICKLY. But people get weird about you having unreciprocated feelings for them, so ARGH. If I could NOT HAVE FEELINGS ANY MORE THAT WOULD BE GREAT. (Except there’s that part of my brain pointing out that I’m focusing on all the bad things and if everything went right just this once we could both be really happy! I DON’T THINK I WANT TO BE HAPPY IF BEING HAPPY HURTS THIS MUCH!!)

It’s cool. It’s cool. I’m just gonna go have a panic attack. Everything’s fine. I’m fine. Gah.

 

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Thursday 1st May 2014 @ 9:46 pm : Tumblr : 0 Comments :

captainssheild:

jimkirksapple:

#CAN WE ACKNOWLEDGE THAT MAYBE STEVE SLIPPED UP HERE? #LIKE HE HASN’T HAD TO FIGHT LIKE THIS SINCE HE HAD BUCKY BY HIS SIDE #AND THE COMMENT WAS PROBABLY SOMETHING HE WOULD’VE SAID TO BUCKY #AND WHEN THOR DOESN’T RESPOND THE WAY BUCKY WOULD’VE #HE CAN’T HELP BUT FEEL LIKE SOMEONE KNOCKED THE WIND OUT OF HIM #BECAUSE THO THEY’RE FORMING A TEAM #THEY WILL NEVER REPLACE BUCKY #BUCKY WHO WOULD’VE LAUGHED AND CALLED HIM SOME CHILDISH INSULT #AT THAT COMMENT #THE LOOK ON STEVE’S FACE IN THE LAST GIF SCREAMS HIS DISAPPOINTMENT #THAT BUCKY ISN’T THERE FIGHTING THIS BATTLE WITH HIM (via sgtbarns)

STOP BREAKING MY HEARTTTTTTTTTT

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